My baby, I wasn't looking forward to Christmas at all by the time the day arrived I was sick of hearing about it and how excited everyone was. I have nothing to be excited about. This is your first Christmas it should have been one of my best memories. I tried my best for your cousin JJ he enjoyed it very much and had lots of presents, I was imagining how much fun it would be with both of you here, me and your Aunty Donna probably would have gone completely over the top as we always do. I misss you and I really wish you were here with us, merry Christmas angel love you for eternity xxxx