Today we had to go back to the hospital to get your post mortem results, I had been dreading it all day not just talking about it but returning to that awful place where they told me. As I thought it was so hard it made all the emotions come back and smack me in the face, the smell made me feel so sick and I couldn't hold back the tears. We were told that your umbilical cord was longer than normal and it had a knot in it which caused you to suffocate. I cant tell you what im feeling now because i don't know upset, angry I just wish there was some way to fix this and turn back time. I Love You xXx